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I do.
And I doubt we'll ever have to worry about it. I'd be afraid if it seemed more likely, though. We don't know what pathogens they could innocently bring, for example.
-3:53 AM
I do.
And I doubt we'll ever have to worry about it. I'd be afraid if it seemed more likely, though. We don't know what pathogens they could innocently bring, for example.
-3:53 AM
Writer's Block: Take my advice
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You should probably always follow your own intuition. Other people's advice might help guide you, but ignoring your own inner feelings will just lead you down a path that will make you unhappy, unfulfulled, or even unsafe, depending on the situation. I believe strongly in listening to myself before I listen to anyone else.
The best advice I ever received would probably be "be yourself", which is also the worst advice, because most people don't quite like me as I am ;)
So, news on the health front (already): I can get the cheap price (40$), then have to add on four more dollars, and then will receive an additional bill of 80-90 dollars in the mail.
Just put the sauce on the stove, it's simmering now. I make the BEST spaghetti sauce.
-3:25 PM
You should probably always follow your own intuition. Other people's advice might help guide you, but ignoring your own inner feelings will just lead you down a path that will make you unhappy, unfulfulled, or even unsafe, depending on the situation. I believe strongly in listening to myself before I listen to anyone else.
The best advice I ever received would probably be "be yourself", which is also the worst advice, because most people don't quite like me as I am ;)
So, news on the health front (already): I can get the cheap price (40$), then have to add on four more dollars, and then will receive an additional bill of 80-90 dollars in the mail.
Just put the sauce on the stove, it's simmering now. I make the BEST spaghetti sauce.
-3:25 PM
Just cleaned one shower wall. I do small tasks so I don't get ~~overwhelmed. When you're crazy, small things overwhelm you. That's just how I roll.
Also the cleaner has bleach and there's only so many shower walls worth of time you can breathe that in.
Didn't use gloves (lol moron) so now it's time for a manicure. Wheeeeeeeeeee!
-9:02 PM
Also the cleaner has bleach and there's only so many shower walls worth of time you can breathe that in.
Didn't use gloves (lol moron) so now it's time for a manicure. Wheeeeeeeeeee!
-9:02 PM
Just finished a cleaning session in my bathroom. I have a cleaning products headache and the skin on my fingers feels like sandpaper (gloves are for sissies). I've apparently reached the OCD portion of the manic episode that's been hanging around for the past two weeks. I can feel dirt and germs crawling on my skin, ew ew ew ew ewwwwwwwwww. (I'm crazy. We knew that.) I haven't slept much and my head hurts like hell from the jaw tension (I've been clenching it like whoa) but at least now my bathroom is (half) sparkling clean. I still have part of the bathtub and the whole floor to do, but that's for another day.
My back hurts too and I bet my knees will hurt tomorrow. It's okay. If I have to be crazy, might as well be clean.
-10:01 PM
ETA 11:01 PM
Now my hands are itchy. I think I killed my skin. Oops. I'll have to find some lotion.
My back hurts too and I bet my knees will hurt tomorrow. It's okay. If I have to be crazy, might as well be clean.
-10:01 PM
ETA 11:01 PM
Now my hands are itchy. I think I killed my skin. Oops. I'll have to find some lotion.
So, just a warning, the newspeople today (I watch the local news a lot because I usually fall asleep after the morning news comes on, and wake up for the five/six o'clock news and then watch the ten o'clock news later on) were positively FLAILING about how cold they were expecting it to get. I heard reports that Brooksville (next town over and colder because it's farther from the gulf) will get down to EIGHTEEN DEGREES.
So, again, just a warning, when I get crazy from the cold I can't help myself and keep posting about how cold it's getting.
I had more to say but screw it, it's 31 degrees and my brain's shut off.
-12:40 AM
ETA 1:41 AM: 29 degrees.
ETA 3:54 AM: 28.7 degrees
ETA 4:57 AM: 26.7 degrees
ETA 5:42 AM: 26.1
ETA: 5:43 AM now it's 26.0 even
So, again, just a warning, when I get crazy from the cold I can't help myself and keep posting about how cold it's getting.
I had more to say but screw it, it's 31 degrees and my brain's shut off.
-12:40 AM
ETA 1:41 AM: 29 degrees.
ETA 3:54 AM: 28.7 degrees
ETA 4:57 AM: 26.7 degrees
ETA 5:42 AM: 26.1
ETA: 5:43 AM now it's 26.0 even
I don't want to hear people say it doesn't get cold in Florida, because it is now currently 27 degrees outside, right this very minute. IT IS BELOW FREEZING. I know there are other places in the USA where it's colder, like below zero craziness, but 27 degrees? Is still really, really, uncomfortably cold. In the summer when it's really hot I can just turn on the fan and ignore it. In the winter I can bundle my 97 degree body (even a nurse commented on how abnormally cold I am) in a heated blanket and still be cold because my walls have no insulation.
In short, it is a myth that Florida has no winter. You can have winter without snow, and thank God we do because if it was snowing right now they'd have to sedate me and keep me in a mental ward, because Jesus I couldn't handle that.
In conclusion the cold has made me insane, please disregard this crazy angry post.
-1:27 AM
3:35 AM
Oh God now it's 24 degrees please send help
In short, it is a myth that Florida has no winter. You can have winter without snow, and thank God we do because if it was snowing right now they'd have to sedate me and keep me in a mental ward, because Jesus I couldn't handle that.
In conclusion the cold has made me insane, please disregard this crazy angry post.
-1:27 AM
3:35 AM
Oh God now it's 24 degrees please send help
Some lady just called from the doctor's office. She said "everything's fine". WTF DOES THAT MEAN EVERYTHING'S FINE I WILL NOT ACCEPT THAT I WILL NOT ACCEPT THAT I HAVE BAD SKIN AND AM FAT AND COLD FOR NO REASON I DON'T THINK YOU KNOW WHAT YOU'RE TALKING ABOUT, IRENE
Well now that I know I'm normal, or at least that's what I think that means, I realize that I was hoping for the other result... I was hoping there was an easy solution to my millions of problems. Now I know I'm just crazy. There aren't words to express my disappointment right now. I was so looking forward to taking some pills and becoming normal. Sleeping like a normal human being. Not being cold. Not having crappy dry skin on my arms and legs. Not having periods from hell. Not having headaches from hell. Being healthy and thinner and thinking clearly and not being annoyed or sad all the time. I was so looking forward to my new life. I should have known.
Also that means there's another reason for a problem I brought up that made my doctor mention the thyroid to begin with, and... that's another thing to worry about, but we'll talk about that in October.
I can't believe they just took my ticket to normalcy away from me.
I haven't been to sleep yet. I'm going to go maybe throw up now. Or cry. Or both.
-9:52 AM
Well now that I know I'm normal, or at least that's what I think that means, I realize that I was hoping for the other result... I was hoping there was an easy solution to my millions of problems. Now I know I'm just crazy. There aren't words to express my disappointment right now. I was so looking forward to taking some pills and becoming normal. Sleeping like a normal human being. Not being cold. Not having crappy dry skin on my arms and legs. Not having periods from hell. Not having headaches from hell. Being healthy and thinner and thinking clearly and not being annoyed or sad all the time. I was so looking forward to my new life. I should have known.
Also that means there's another reason for a problem I brought up that made my doctor mention the thyroid to begin with, and... that's another thing to worry about, but we'll talk about that in October.
I can't believe they just took my ticket to normalcy away from me.
I haven't been to sleep yet. I'm going to go maybe throw up now. Or cry. Or both.
-9:52 AM
I might get my results tomorrow. I'll have to answer the phone myself, aaaaaaaaaahhhh I don't waaaaaaant toooooooooooooooooooo but I am so anxious for these results, you don't even know, because they could literally change my entire life, and also treatment is horrendously expensive and I have no money and I am so scared. But I'm also really excited, because finally finally FINALLY all of my health problems will have a REASON, a TREATABLE reason, and I can't wait to be skinny and awake and not cold and not have dry skin and be able to think straight and concentrate on stuff and maybe not have headaches and horrible death periods anymore, it's going to be so awesome, if I really do have a thyroid problem, and I am so excited and so scared because I don't know if I want my life to change, but I just can't take it anymore, the waiting, I mean. I want to start treatment and be normal for once in my life, like everybody else, because people always say "OH U R SO COOL AND UNIQUE" and really I appreciate the compliment, and I like being different, but you don't know what it's like to be such a freak, and now I can possibly take anti-freak pills and be NORMAL. AND IT IS GOING TO BE AWESOME. Maybe. If I get the results I want, and really, I don't know what I want. I don't know if I want it to be positive or negative. I don't know if I want to take anti-freak pills. I don't know if I want my crazy to have an explanation.
But I can't stand not knowing, and the test cost like 150 bucks or something, so I kind of have to get the results now. I guess.
I'm so nervous, about the test and about answering the phone, although I suppose they wouldn't give the results to anyone else (I can't remember if I told this doctor it's okay to tell my parents stuff).
I'm just so scared, for like a million reasons. I'll never get to sleep tonight (read: this morning).
I'll come back and tell you as soon as I know.
-2:55 AM
But I can't stand not knowing, and the test cost like 150 bucks or something, so I kind of have to get the results now. I guess.
I'm so nervous, about the test and about answering the phone, although I suppose they wouldn't give the results to anyone else (I can't remember if I told this doctor it's okay to tell my parents stuff).
I'm just so scared, for like a million reasons. I'll never get to sleep tonight (read: this morning).
I'll come back and tell you as soon as I know.
-2:55 AM
