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Some lady just called from the doctor's office. She said "everything's fine". WTF DOES THAT MEAN EVERYTHING'S FINE I WILL NOT ACCEPT THAT I WILL NOT ACCEPT THAT I HAVE BAD SKIN AND AM FAT AND COLD FOR NO REASON I DON'T THINK YOU KNOW WHAT YOU'RE TALKING ABOUT, IRENE
Well now that I know I'm normal, or at least that's what I think that means, I realize that I was hoping for the other result... I was hoping there was an easy solution to my millions of problems. Now I know I'm just crazy. There aren't words to express my disappointment right now. I was so looking forward to taking some pills and becoming normal. Sleeping like a normal human being. Not being cold. Not having crappy dry skin on my arms and legs. Not having periods from hell. Not having headaches from hell. Being healthy and thinner and thinking clearly and not being annoyed or sad all the time. I was so looking forward to my new life. I should have known.
Also that means there's another reason for a problem I brought up that made my doctor mention the thyroid to begin with, and... that's another thing to worry about, but we'll talk about that in October.
I can't believe they just took my ticket to normalcy away from me.
I haven't been to sleep yet. I'm going to go maybe throw up now. Or cry. Or both.
-9:52 AM
Well now that I know I'm normal, or at least that's what I think that means, I realize that I was hoping for the other result... I was hoping there was an easy solution to my millions of problems. Now I know I'm just crazy. There aren't words to express my disappointment right now. I was so looking forward to taking some pills and becoming normal. Sleeping like a normal human being. Not being cold. Not having crappy dry skin on my arms and legs. Not having periods from hell. Not having headaches from hell. Being healthy and thinner and thinking clearly and not being annoyed or sad all the time. I was so looking forward to my new life. I should have known.
Also that means there's another reason for a problem I brought up that made my doctor mention the thyroid to begin with, and... that's another thing to worry about, but we'll talk about that in October.
I can't believe they just took my ticket to normalcy away from me.
I haven't been to sleep yet. I'm going to go maybe throw up now. Or cry. Or both.
-9:52 AM