It Seems Like Years Since It's Been Clear

Proposal story, behind a cut because I'm a super polite ADULT now~~

Oh, and some new pictures of the ring I haven't shared yet. IT'S REALLY SHINY YOU SHOULD CLICK JUST FOR THOSE.

( I DO )

lol that got long I'M FULL OF FEELINGS OK

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Well, my boyfriend and I- to put it mildly- don't see eye to eye on most music. We agree on a lot, but disagree on much more.

However, what we do have is respect for each other. I can listen to my music when I want, and he can listen to his, you know, with headphones, and we don't force each other to listen to music the other hates when we're stuck in a room/car together. I love to share stuff I love with other people so I ask him once "ooh new Kylie song!" and he'll listen, once. And if he likes it (which happens a lot, actually) then good. And if he doesn't, I won't get in a huff and force it on him. And he won't do it to me. That's what a relationship is about.

In Snowwatch '10 news: no snow today. Forecast has changed to snow for this weekend, however. So, snow. Is this how it's going to be? The waiting game? Well, it's 29 degrees right now, and I'm still alive. BRING IT.

-9:17 PM

So my head hurts less today, that's good. Today was (June 5th) my anniversary (FIVE YEARS NOW WHAT WHAT BITCHES)

Hmm. I could have sworn I had more to say, but I guess not. :) OH ALSO IT'S THUNDERING REALLY LOUD AND THAT IS AWESOME.
-1:19 AM

We all knew it had to happen: I'm getting a new computer soon.
This one is nine years old. At the time, in 1998, it was state-of-the-art: Pentium 2 processor! 8 whole gigabytes of harddrive space! The brand-new Windows 98! Internet Explorer 4! A CD PLAYER OMG! A floppy disk drive (remember those?)
However... that was nine years ago. The monitor is blurry (no amount of fiddling with the buttons changes it), it's dusty, it's slower than a grandma covered in molassas in January in northern Canada, I'm limited to what I can download and what programs I can use (AIM said I can't have the new version until I get a new computer.)
For awhile my parents had no money, especially after my father's open-heart surgery when he couldn't work as much. And we were on welfare. But that was four years ago, and now we've got plenty of money. We had the houses painted inside and out, got a new air conditioners, a new refrigerator, a new oven, a new microwave, a new television (which is now outdated next to all that plasma HD crap, but whatever), digital cable, a new stereo, new carpet and tiles, cell phones... We've got everything else. We can put off getting a new computer no longer.
The printer that came with this computer gave out a few weeks ago (a weird string... thing popped out, so it was basically dead...) So, you know.
Plus the last week or so the internet and the computer itself have been so freaking slow you can't even imagine it. My mother counted 70 seconds for a page to load. No amount of virus-scanning or spyware scanning or defragmenting has changed anything.

So, as you can imagine, this is kind of an emotional time for me. Unlike with Bob, my laptop, which died kind of quickly, I've known for a long time that this one had to go. It's nine years old now. If computer years are anything like dog years, this thing is way past its prime. It's ready to retire. (Actually, it's a she- I named it Ami-chan after Sailor Mercury's Japanese name. She was the smart one.)

It's hard to say goodbye to something you grew up with. This computer's been here for me through middle school, fifth grade even. It was here for Sexton's essays. It was here when I first played Carmen Sandiego. It was here when I first discovered Sailor Moon and then when I discovered it again. It was here when I first discovered the internet. It was here when I had no friends and it was here when I finally got some great ones. It helped me make my first webpages. It was here when I got AIM, when I got deadjournal and then livejournal, and myspace. It taught me how to type. It was here before my grandfather got too dementia'd out and used to sit with me while I used it (it used to live in the other house till a few years before my grandfather died in 2003.). It was here for so many changes in my life, and it's hard to let go.

But I'm tired of having old or second-hand stuff (Bob was second-hand). I'm tired of being outdated. It's not a person (though I treat it like one) who would be offended at being traded in for a newer model (like the old wife hating the new trophy wife.)

So this will be my formal, public goodbye to a lovely, lovely computer. I'll always love you, Ami-chan. I'll never, ever forget you. And thank you for everything. (Oh my God, I'm crying so hard right now. And my computer's making noises, too. IT KNOWS. There's a lot of guilt here, people.)

You always remember your first. :)

<3 forever.

-5:39 AM (yeah, I really need sleep.)

I don't really know where to start; tonight was uneventful. However, it's my second anniversary with my boyfriend, so I have to document it.
He and I have known each other for two years now. We haven't been through hard times- our relationship doesn't really leave room for nonsense like that. We're happy together, and I know some people don't understand that... but I don't care, honestly. When you have your own "other half", you'll know what it's like, and until then, go suck a lemon. I'm going to be cliche here and say that I feel blessed, amazed, overwhelmed, honored, and undeserving. He's given me a lot over the past two years, a lot more than I ever could have hoped for. He's supported me through two ridiculously hard/stressful/whatever years at Springstead, two years full of AP classes and Springstead administration bullshit. I don't know what I would have done without him.
I do know that since I met him I've been writing in my livejournal less, and writing a lot less in general. It's because now I have someone who's listening at the end of every day to tell things to, and instead of a journal that doesn't respond, I have a real live human being to be empathetic and show that someone out there is listening and cares. I guess I just want instant gratification; lj comments are not enough for me, lol. We've had two beautiful years I never could have expected would come from a chance meeting.
We met the Saturday after Harry Potter and the Prisoner of Azkaban came out in theaters, because Bianca brought all of her friends to see it. It's a great movie, PoA is my favorite movie so far, and was always my favorite Harry Potter book. And He was there, my boyfriend and favorite person in the world, and we kind of clicked. Things are a lot different now than they were then, but one thing is the same: we still click.
I don't talk about him a lot because I hate those people who spend hours rambling on and on and on about how happy they are and how wonderful their significant other is, because no one else cares. Today is special though, so I think I'm justified in my ramblings :)


Today, at dinner, my father asked what today's date was, so I said the thirteenth. I also mentioned it was our anniversary, so he offered to go pick up the boyfriend for me so we could spend the evening together. After some annoying telephone tag, we finally worked things out and picked him up and then got pizza and donuts (my mother was hungry, lol).
When we got home we poked at my beads for awhile (I make bracelets), and then we went outside to play catch. We played for awhile, but I suck so we decided just to sit down for awhile and enjoy the Florida humidity. It's funny- one side of my head got all frizzy and icky and the other side didn't frizz up at all. Then we came inside, watched Family Guy, and then my father and I took him home. Uneventful, but lovely just the same; we really do belong together. There's no one else I feel more comfortable with, and no one else I'd rather be with. And even my family commented that I'm always happier when he's around, so I guess that proves we belong together. :)
Love you forever, and forever, love you with all my heart, love you whenever we're together, love you when we're apart...
June 13th, 2004
I love you, my angel :)
-1:43 AM
P.S. Thank you Bianca, for bringing us together. :)