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This is really embarrassing but maybe if I post about it it'll stop.
For the past two years, since graduation (and before, I think), I've been having this horrible, horrible recurring nightmare.
It changes a lot each time but it comes back once or twice a month. Sometimes, in the dream, I get a letter about it, and sometimes the dream starts in the middle of it. But it's always the same basic premise:
Somehow, someone decides that I have to go back to high school. Sometimes I know from the beginning. Other times I realize halfway through the dream that I did that shit already and shouldn't be there. Sometimes it's because I didn't actually pass math and someone at the school board realizes this. The school always looks different. It's usually really really pretty, but sometimes it's really ugly and full of annoying people. Sometimes I know the people or teachers, mostly I don't.
It's just a horrible dream to keep having, because my dreams are really realistic and are always tediously dull (I dream about showering and going online a lot) and these going-back-to-school dreams are always just as boring.
I just really hated being a student. I hated the books, the classes, a lot of the teachers, a lot of my fellow students, the fact that the chairs were uncomfortable and the rooms were always cold, and the tests and the homework and blaaaaaah and I'm sick and damn tired of going back to school when I go to sleep.
I mean, I really did just barely pass Algebra, and it's entirely possible that up until the point of graduation someone could have decided that three Fs and a D didn't equal a passing grade and make me retake Algebra online or something. But I totally graduated, really and completely, and I have a diploma and a cap and gown getting dusty to prove it. They can't take back a diploma, can they? I don't think so.
And really, you'd think two years later my subconscious would relax.
-4:04 AM
For the past two years, since graduation (and before, I think), I've been having this horrible, horrible recurring nightmare.
It changes a lot each time but it comes back once or twice a month. Sometimes, in the dream, I get a letter about it, and sometimes the dream starts in the middle of it. But it's always the same basic premise:
Somehow, someone decides that I have to go back to high school. Sometimes I know from the beginning. Other times I realize halfway through the dream that I did that shit already and shouldn't be there. Sometimes it's because I didn't actually pass math and someone at the school board realizes this. The school always looks different. It's usually really really pretty, but sometimes it's really ugly and full of annoying people. Sometimes I know the people or teachers, mostly I don't.
It's just a horrible dream to keep having, because my dreams are really realistic and are always tediously dull (I dream about showering and going online a lot) and these going-back-to-school dreams are always just as boring.
I just really hated being a student. I hated the books, the classes, a lot of the teachers, a lot of my fellow students, the fact that the chairs were uncomfortable and the rooms were always cold, and the tests and the homework and blaaaaaah and I'm sick and damn tired of going back to school when I go to sleep.
I mean, I really did just barely pass Algebra, and it's entirely possible that up until the point of graduation someone could have decided that three Fs and a D didn't equal a passing grade and make me retake Algebra online or something. But I totally graduated, really and completely, and I have a diploma and a cap and gown getting dusty to prove it. They can't take back a diploma, can they? I don't think so.
And really, you'd think two years later my subconscious would relax.
-4:04 AM
