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argh
My glasses just broke. The left arm's been holding on by a thread, and now it's popped clean off. By "popped" I mean somehow a hinge broke in some weird way that doesn't even seem possible because the other arm doesn't even have a hinge or a joint there, so... what? I've managed to stick it back on with some scotch tape, and now I look ridiculous.
I mean, I know I should be grateful that I even have corrective eyewear and people around the world have no eye glasses and blah blah, but. My glasses are already old and scratched and that kind of dirty you can't really clean and they're crooked and some of the paint is chipped off, and now they're held together with tape.
And I have no health insurance and the money in my checking account is dwindling and I have no job and no qualifications for one and my mother has no job and my father's money is stretched thinner than it used to be and anyway he shouldn't have to pay for his 24-year-old daughter's eyeglasses.
I probably need another eye exam since it's been about 2 years and that's not cheap and I have the kind of face that looks like shit pretty much always and especially when I wear glasses so I can't even buy the cheaper frames. In order not to be so hideously ugly I'm hauled away by the police for disturbing the peace I have to wear specific kinds of glasses which are impossible to find because everyone wants ironic hipster ~nerd~ glasses and I hate all of them.
There was a show on Fox (since cancelled because it was shit, and sexist) where a female character spends money stupidly with the idea that ~everything happens if you wish hard enough~ and her boyfriend has terrible nerd glasses. And at the end of the episode she says she loves him because he loves her in spite of her stupidity, and he says he loves her because she loves him in spite of his dorky glasses. Uh, what? Dude, you have a choice. Even if you need special kinds of glasses, they come in attractive shapes that aren't dorky and hipster-shit. I know from experience here, okay? They can make special glasses not look really stupid. If they meant she loves him in spite of his dorkiness in general, well, sure, I guess, except he's still just a nerd and she's a complete idiot who expects money to fall from the sky. (See what I mean about that show being sexist?)
anyway glasses are important and shitty ones ruin lives and I am poor and also stupid. If I'd made different choices at the age of 14 ten years later I would not be here whining about this. bleh. (look what a mess this entry is, remember when I was a writer? whatever happened to that? Now I hate myself for my terrible writing and for my ugly face and its stupid glasses. I don't think I can even wear contacts because of the prism/depth perception thing and my sensitive eyes and wow, I really hate myself today.)
-7:25 AM
I mean, I know I should be grateful that I even have corrective eyewear and people around the world have no eye glasses and blah blah, but. My glasses are already old and scratched and that kind of dirty you can't really clean and they're crooked and some of the paint is chipped off, and now they're held together with tape.
And I have no health insurance and the money in my checking account is dwindling and I have no job and no qualifications for one and my mother has no job and my father's money is stretched thinner than it used to be and anyway he shouldn't have to pay for his 24-year-old daughter's eyeglasses.
I probably need another eye exam since it's been about 2 years and that's not cheap and I have the kind of face that looks like shit pretty much always and especially when I wear glasses so I can't even buy the cheaper frames. In order not to be so hideously ugly I'm hauled away by the police for disturbing the peace I have to wear specific kinds of glasses which are impossible to find because everyone wants ironic hipster ~nerd~ glasses and I hate all of them.
There was a show on Fox (since cancelled because it was shit, and sexist) where a female character spends money stupidly with the idea that ~everything happens if you wish hard enough~ and her boyfriend has terrible nerd glasses. And at the end of the episode she says she loves him because he loves her in spite of her stupidity, and he says he loves her because she loves him in spite of his dorky glasses. Uh, what? Dude, you have a choice. Even if you need special kinds of glasses, they come in attractive shapes that aren't dorky and hipster-shit. I know from experience here, okay? They can make special glasses not look really stupid. If they meant she loves him in spite of his dorkiness in general, well, sure, I guess, except he's still just a nerd and she's a complete idiot who expects money to fall from the sky. (See what I mean about that show being sexist?)
anyway glasses are important and shitty ones ruin lives and I am poor and also stupid. If I'd made different choices at the age of 14 ten years later I would not be here whining about this. bleh. (look what a mess this entry is, remember when I was a writer? whatever happened to that? Now I hate myself for my terrible writing and for my ugly face and its stupid glasses. I don't think I can even wear contacts because of the prism/depth perception thing and my sensitive eyes and wow, I really hate myself today.)
-7:25 AM
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it makes me sad when you're sad because you should always be happy and it's my job to be sad <3
also ilu.
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Also, Ivy I know a place that has REALLY cheap glasses ( I know it doesn't really help since exams are so much) but if you can find the kind you need then zennioptical.com has really great, really cheap glasses. All you need to do is make sure you know your prescription. Seriously I buy glasses (not just frames--entire pairs of glasses) for like $10-20
I love you and I want you to know that you're wonderful and beautiful and all of us dummies with hipster glasses think you're lovely and deserve to be able to see things <3
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I WILL LOOK INTO THIS. I'm not sure if they can do my ~special prism~ thing but it's worth a look. Maybe I can get a new eye exam from walmart and then order them online? Because I think walmart will still adjust them and stuff even if you didn't get the frames there. hmmmm.
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I LOVE YOU AND YOU ARE SO PERFECT :') I try to be happy because I know we can't both be sad at the same time so I will try my best!
ilu more.
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I volunteered in a school clinic for a bit and there are nurse organizations that help people out with things like glasses and shoes. There are also some free clinics around, so check around your area and see what options there are, if you haven't already. I can't guarantee you'll get your dream glasses, but I have taken a couple kids back into the storeroom and let them pick out shoes they actually liked, so.
If you can figure the glasses part out and get something nice, maybe you'll feel better about yourself, right?
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I'm going to have to look into this. I never really think of these programs as being for me, I always think, like, I should be much more poor. But I'm going to have to see what's available.